I'm spendin more time offline

I like to spend time knitting or painting nowadays. I've been doing it for a while now; I've always liked painting random things and I picked up knitting over Covid (I was never one for going out much but somehow still picked up a covid hobby to fill the time) and I used to think it was just as simple as "I enjoy making things and spending time online is [usually] not that". And in part it is, but I've realised more recently there's one other major facet of why I do these hobbies where I'm forced to not sit directly in front of a screen with a keyboard and a connection to a bunch of opinionated angry strangers.

Its to get away from said angry opinionated strangers

Kinda fucked up the surprise of that by putting that in the preceding sentence didn't I. See this is why I don't write for serious shit I'm not gonna edit things unless I disagree with what I wrote. Pls don't click out

Yes that thing you're mad at is awful. Anyways

Lessee there's two major wars going on, we just got out of a pandemic, we're in top loneliness and suicide season (it's December while I'm writing this) and hbomberguy just dropped another video so like three more people are canceled. On top of the 50+ people that already were canceled. Oh yeah and there's a housing crisis, and a migrant crisis, and a cost of living crisis which in itself is already an awful awful term... And a whole bunch of other shit. Some new some old. All of it bad. If you're sitting there expecting me to justify anything of what I just mentioned or about to say some of them are fine, or not as bad, or worse than one another and you're preparing yourself to get mad at me you need to adjust your brain before you self-implode cos if you don't that's in the cards sooner or later man. I'm telling you



The reason I listed all that shit isn't because I'm about to pick them apart, or say some shit about society or whatever, it's because things like those events and people will *always* be there. Forever and ever. Until the inevitable heat death of the universe or whatever takes you out first. The thing is, I (and you!!!) am just one person. I dunno how much longer I'll be here. Maybe 5 years, maybe 50. Christ maybe even more. Could also be gone tomorrow. Idfk. I don't care much either but we're not talking about that right now



I've got some aquaintances who were young in the 70s and 80s, and when one of my peers asked "how do you deal with these times??? everything is just so awful!" (which to be fair was right when covid stopped being a major issue but I think it still counts) they explained it's nothing new. Not literally of course but there were still many many awful things and it was all the news and everyone who felt like it was talking about. And they weren't wrong then either! But I think we kinda feel like we have to be actively aware and constantly condemning these things when in god's name who the fuck has the energy for all that? So I disconnect because I need all that noise to stop. It's all useless. Hey be angry about this new thing how about you fuck off and idfk go paint some flowers. Go powerwash your driveway you're not better than anyone else just cos you're mad about Thing or Guy or Event. You're just miserable.

Maybe it's just me

Im just tired man. So so tired. I don't have the energy nor the will to be mad all the fuckin time about things I can't influence. And sometimes a shitty person is just a shitty person. I don't care to see the repercussions of them being found out. Or throwing a canceled party or whatever fucking demented shit Twitter called into life a couple years back for whenever this happens.

Sometimes it means I gotta get away from things I actually enjoy, like videos about movies or historical phenomenons because they sudddenly burst into a spiel about one political or societal issue that has fuckall to do with the original subject. But so be it. I'll switch to fuckin Vinny or Jerma or whatever for background noise and continue knitting my scarf or whatever the hell I'm doing instead to get away from useless angry drivel. And I recommend it. Its just not worth the energy and something new always takes an old thing's place whether you're there to yell about it or not.